do you have a heart? i think i do...

He looked at her with those piercing grey eyes, reading every slight movement that her lovely face made. It hurt her so bad to look at his face and the thought that they would never see each other again, tore her soul into a million pieces. She never knew of a love so strong that could transform her life to what it was now and he; a person so magical that he could not live without. “Maybe two is better than one?” It was fate that brought them together yet it was cruelly tearing them apart. Should they give up or keep on chasing their love? Living with Alzheimer’s was driving the final nail into the door and they knew it. He forgot her everyday but she always woke up early to remind him of his wife. The diary, the scrapbook – their life all placed in a simple way so he could remember, if not their life together would have been lost to the grey fuzzy areas of his complex mind. It was tedious but she religiously did it everyday just so that she could have him back even if it was just for a second, that one second meant the world to her and she knew, to him too. Maybe. She had cried all the tears that she could have possibly cried yet she knew better than to let herself fall into the big, black hole of helplessness that would continue to grow bigger and bigger and harder and harder to get out from. He would have never wanted that for her and neither did she. “Just come back to me” . She wondered whether He was testing her or it was just her punishment, either way she took it with ease. Nothing came simple: not even their love. She sat silently by their queen-sized bed while he slowly flipped the pages of the delicate book. Something in his eyes began to light up and a small smile grew at the corners of his mouth. He remembers she sighed with relief. He then reached out and gently spread his fingers to touch her delicate pale face. The warmth she instantly felt brought tears to her eyes and he gave a wider smile. His eyes said I love you. She mouthed it back to him and they embraced with glistening tears trickling down her cheeks. Everyday was like this, exactly. She knew that. She accepted it. She loved him. It would never change. Never.

someday, when my life has passed me by...

sometimes people need to scream. to release all that tension that built up from maybe just the smallest tick. And sometimes we can be spiteful in those moments but that doesn't mean we hate your guts till every time we look at you you'll disintegrate.

So try to understand : whoever that might be hurt (though I possibly doubt it since this tiny nook of mine is pretty secluded except for the bored readers, you know i love you loads) that it's not that I hate your guts.. I JUST HATE YOU SO MUCH THAT EVERY TIME I LOOK AT YOU I HOPE MY GLARES WILL MAKE YOU EVAPORATE! just kidding of course.seriously.

So the count down is on : 2 months and 20 days before I get to sit on a horrible plane and eat horrible food just so i can see those special peeps and feel like 'I'M HOME' once and for all. count with me too eh?

Things to look forward:

1. Y-O-U (yes i know who you are and i know you can't wait too! *girly squeals*
2. THE FUCKING-MIND-BLOWING FOOD!
3. some sunnny sun.. i'm turning sickly yellow. ugh
4. most of all i just want to be home. yes home.

love

avey

you.

it's to the point where things are out of hand

Ever had the feeling where you had this problem and there was no one around you that you could trust to confide in? It's like you're all alone and there is no one to suck you out of your misery. Whether it's a bad hair day or even a break up. Things just all seem worse when there is no one around you. Sucks even far worse when you know that there is someone there that cares but their so fucking far away. They're there but you can't reach them.

I need all those people. The ones that comfort me when I had to do what I thought was the hardest thing ever. Forgetting things. Someone. Things are just fucked up.

People that make me smile when they say just one word. Not even a word. A sound. Could you do that?

People that bring happiness with a simple hello are the people I want. The people I miss. The people I wish were here so that I can stop putting a fucking smile on everyday and just tell others to fuck off.

People that make everyday worth while going to school even if you knew it was going to be shitty.

People that are just people no matter what others say.

These people are friends. And you are not them. You may come close but you can't touch it. Just like how I can't touch them right now.

Go fuck the side that you're showing people and then maybe you'll realize...

it's hoops, balls and st. patricks

FINALLY the pictures to the fun-filled NBA game that i experienced.

the big yellow bus that all the s'poreans and malaysians were obsessing over :D

yi yang looks like he's going to kill someone right fi?

fiona's pro skills

THE STADIUM IS HUGE RIGHT?? ZOMG!

the retarded, hilarious and self-entertaining roomies together

GO RAPTORS GO GO!

Yi yang was so enthusiastic only AFTER the Raptors scored 100 points ==

the Atlanta Hawks

The Toronto Raptors

THE STADIUM! Air Canada is HUGE.

Awesome shot.

So to sum it up Raptors won 106 - 105 at the very last second Chris Bosh scored for them and won the game and us THE AUDIENCE free pizza. Amazing i know?

next up my little adventure.

love

avey

it's weird when you fall and everyone doesn't

So the long awaited update from me.. And yes I know I'm don't update as usual but at least I update more than EVERYONE! =D

So first update ski trip:

First thing first : I SUCK AT SKIING SO WHAT MORE SNOWBOARDING? I was never made to skiing and conquer the snow slopes of Blue Mountain in Canada or anywhere else.. (: pretty depressing but heck at least I gave it a try. So the only problem I with learning to ski was THE FUNDAMENTAL PART : I COULD NOT STOP :D hilarious I know.

HOWEVER, the neat and dainty village in Blue Mountain is SO AWESOME! The shops were so cute and DAINTY! AND THERE WAS A CANDY SHOP THAT WAS SOOOOOOO COOOL. The shop sold like antique candy like salt water taffy, handmade lollipops, RAZZLES and loads more that if I continue listing I'll be tired and everyone would kill me :D So bought a lot of candy to increase my chances and probability of being obese. HAHA

NEXT: MUSE CONCERT in AIR CANADA HOCKEY STADIUM was f**king awesome. FUCKING AWESOME, two words only to describe the concert. How can any MALAYSIAN phantom such awesomeness? The stadium, the light effects, the sound effect *mind blasting* and MOST of ALL THE BAND AND MATT WAS INSANELY GOOD! OMG. Most of the songs they played were from the new album but I enjoyed the concert anyways.

coming up:

NBA Basketball Game tomorrow!

pictures will be up once I have the time to do so...

love

avey

snowballs and snow angels with a whole lot of english wrapped into it

YES!! Finally English is almost over but the worst is, so happy-happy-joy-joy =D

I love ISU!!! lol finished my game board that we had to do for the novel we were reading.. Mine was "A Prayer For Owen Meany" by John Irving. My recommendation? PEOPLE SERIOUSLY READ IT!!! IT'S FUCK GOOD!!! The arrangement of the story is a bit messed up but it's hilariously GOOOOOD. So on friday we had our presentation and I totally screwed it up but who cares.. I'm psych too much to care.

So after English me, Fiona, Sze Ying, Yi Yang and Mark went out to the snowman competition.. Did we build one? NO.. but we had a blast pelting people with SNOWBALLS!! My first snowball fight and it was pretty awesome and intense.

I was having a headache after that but I still continued to play and we went to a hill near the school and rolled down in the snow. Super fun seriously. We made snow angels or attempted to make snow angels hahaha.

We all were freezing so decided to head back into the nice warm, heated school. I practically looked like I took a shower outside in the snow but it was a blast.. the 'battlefield' is so ruined now.. no more perfect scenery of snow.. hahaha

gonna post some pictures up (credits yi yang)

post-fight

snowball with glasses!

Warming up!

18 but not any older

So last weekend was Wayne's birthday and all of us decided to go to Toronto and get away from shit-hole Mississauga. So sat the train and *poof* we were there!!!!

Walked to Queen's and found the Eaton Centre... and what do you do there? YOU SHOP!!!!!

People went wild there, seriously.

Yi Yang bought an FCUK bag and Fi got a nice striped sweater/hoodie from there too (all thanks to me) and birthday boy bought a shirt too!

Sze Ying, shopping queen bought more loads of shit.. don't know how she going to move out and fit everything inside ==

Mabel bought a hoodie tooooooo!!!

AND GUESS WHAT THE BIRTHDAY BOY BOUGHT AT THE END OF THE DAY?

A FUCKING AIR BLASTER FOR $19.90......

guessing what it is? try searching for in in Google, maybe an image will come out.

So then had to leave them friends and go celebrate with the sisters. Went to Baton Rouge and had kick-ass ribs and sweet potato fries.. yum :P

After that head back we did!

got to end now. will update later

somethings are just funnier through the eyes of others

great essaaaaaay! :D :D seriously. I dunno what to comment and stuff. Haha. Hi Aveline. You are beside me now. Eh cool. Aveline is correct in dictionary. Let me try Fiona. Eh it’s correct too! Mark. Yi yang. Wayne. Mable. Jimmy. Sze ying. Aww man.

The water shortage today sucks. Seriously. Wayne doesn’t wash his hands after he pees. Yuck. Sze ying is talking. Shut up wayne. Today sucks. Seriously. Eh. Hi Aveline. If you’re reading this, which you should. Since it’s your essay. Hahaha

Post this in your blog kay. Joking. Don’t.

Wayne sucks. He is disgusting. Mark is behind me. He’s doing his work. Jimmy is asking yi yang something. Yi yang is getting annoyed. Hahaha.

Chris’s laptop is super tiny. And cute. Like a camera. He watches porn from it. How he sees? I will never know.

Owen is smart. Already a mathematician. So sad back in china, they put him under nursing cause his scores weren’t high enough. Wow... So he had to come to bronte. He’s like Einstein here.

Eh second page. I think Aveline will get annoyed by this. Maybe I’ll go on for ten more pages.

We had our presentation today. I did the art painting thing. The gory one. Teacher likes it!!! ……..i think she only like the eyes.

Haih. I am so sad for my stupid math quiz. How can I blank out at the simplest question? Looks like im getting 50 something….or low sixties. There goes my average. Bloooooody heeeeeell.

See I told you that today will be a bad day. You had a bad day, (forgot Daniel powter’s lyrics)

Mark looks serious. He always look pissed off but he said he’s not.

He just flicked my hair. I hate it when people flick my hair. I think he’s reading this. Shut up mark. Look away.

Cars are awesome. Like lamborghini. And Porsche. And Ferrari. Waaaaaah. If it was either a house or a car, I would choose a car. I would love to sleep in the nice leather seat of the back of my Porsche. And when I want to pee, I’ll just go to yi yang’s house. He better have a gold toilet. Who wouldn’t invest in a gold toilet????

Yi yang is so noisy. He sounds like a kettle. Oh whoops. He’s reading this. BLOW UR NOSE YI YANG. Sorry. My bad. It’s his sinus. Cut off ur sinus.

Chris looks so happy, looking at this tiny laptop. I think he’s watching porn. He distributes porn. Like some ah beng. Except this is blue disc ah beng with his virus filled thumb drive.

OH THANKS SO MUCH AVELINE. I LOVE YOU!

ps: this is fiona ;)

the pictures to the words

so here are the friends :

left to right : wayne, fi, yi yang and will and sze ying(roommate) draw the conclusion about those two yourself.

they saw us!

MABEL LOW! Her laugh is so infectious and unique! I just feel like pinching her cheeks! shokute!

more of the two retards. hehe

studying and reading the The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald.

nerd for only 65 cents.. =D

now for school :

the lobby

cafeteria

the lobby again, see the man at the front desk? He wants a 'I Love Boys' shirt in the size XXS. Funny guy, I think his name is aeran, but i have no idea of the spelling. tehe will update on that. That's all for now!

ps: people who wants my school and room number to call email me k? and the handphone number too. AND I HAVE SKYPE! we must skype!

pictures credited to yi yang and fiona. :)

it's the weirdest thing you've ever seen

Oh yeah the week is over bitches =) 2 weeks of math and english for the whole day will make me pop sooner or later but I'm not here to bitch about the program, I'm here to tell the story of my college's 'TALENT SHOW' *scoffs*

Thursday night, during english some funny rap song was playing through the speakers, technically it was going " Head, shoulders, knees and toes" in a very rap way.. lol

So the whole gang decided to go watch it, with the hopes that it would be good and entertaining.

Guess what? MAJOR LET DOWN!

The first half of the show was the school band playing multiple songs, not very good. Damansara's so much better! =) But there was a saxophonist the was the SHIZZ! He's so sexy playing the saxophone and he's so good.

So the next part after the intermission the solo singers and dancers and bands were up.

One word : ZOMG

Act 1. Brazilian dance = Stripper, erotic dance/ the girls was practically having sex on the wooden floor.

Act 2. Beyonce copy cat, she did "Single Ladies" the exact steps.. not bad but her dress was falling down and we all could see her striped bra. =P

after that it just went down,down,down.... until a band came out and the drummer was cute. I told Mabel that he was cute but she didn't listen until he started singing in Japanese.. lol and then the laughing FITS started and never ended until 11. We had to bathe.

So far that is that for this week, OODLES

first impressions are never the funniest

so have my friends here already. So let's start with the friends :

1. Sze Ying : room mate from penang Jit Sing high school, NEAT FREAK and sucker/loser for all
things PINK and CUTE. Oh and did I tell you she hits me? *cringes*

2. Fiona : FIFI!! sounds like a dog right? Don't be decieve by her 'innocent' looks cause she's
secretly horny and morbid/sadistic *which ever one that sounds less evil la*

3. Mabel : One part of the Geniuses in class from S'pore. Her laugh is so cute and she loves eating
like me!

4. Yi Yang : Second part of the Geniuses, also from S'pore *rolls eyes* His english will blow your
brains out. Seriously

5. Mark (TEOH) : lol HE'S MY NEIGHBOUR FOR 6 YEARS and I'VE NEVER SEEN HIM!!
WTF?

6. Wayne : The 'friend' you all know of but trust me he's weird. like weird. He practically sits
behind us when we're using our laptops and stalk you.. Just starring at you Facebook
or Twitter. ==

7. Jimmy : My first Nigerian FRIEND! He's so funny! Practically the joke of the class. And with
his super BLING watches. lol

8.William : China friend. Can't say much cause this is public but I will say this *I know something
you dont know* lol

that's it I guess. The pictures that come with the names will be up soon as ALL of us have time to be not so tired =)

school baby

So finally got settled in school, (for all that don't know my school is Bronte College of Canada in Mississauga) and meet the new roommate even though I'm meant to have my own room but she's cool.....

Neat freak for one and has a pink obsession that i cannot control.. =)

So far things have been good, met up with the rest of the friends i made (i.e.: fiona and mark) and surprisingly the food is edible so no complaints so far just the room and bathrooms are.... errrr yeah... =D people around call it a shit hole and i agree too but it will be home for the next 6 months so i have to like it.

So here we go with the latest picture updates k?

wait.. i have no picture. hold on k?\

love

avey

let it snow. let it snow, let it snow

here's the heads up on snow :

here to my one and only you're snow!! =)

misery, is what I feel when you're not around

"misery is what I feel when you're not around"

life is a bit sucky now since all the lovelies aren't here. Life's cold and snowy but not too heavy yet to show you guys so i'm reallyreallyreally sorry...

it's a just a short post here since i'm waiting for darling to come online ==

loves

avey

so far, so shitty

So finally left Bandar Utama for Singapore and right now am in a business executive lounge enjoy parma ham, scallops and Heineken beer with people I hardly know.. EXCITING? NO. But life always sucks and so does moving and studying overseas.

I guess I am the first to venture to the unknown among my peers and apparently based on the friends CANADA is TOO far and TOO soon..

On a whole I feel shitty to leave my Jessie, the bed, the house, the parents and most of all the FRIENDS for 6 months in cold crapping weather.

I wonder if things will look up? Maybe.

Soon.

singing out.

it's a mac, baby

SO i'm typing with my BRAND new mac PRO infront of me and right now.. things aren't as GREAT as they're supposed to be.



new system, new applications, and LOADS of new shit i don't understand...



but still I'm a very happy camper, so kudos to the mum and dad for spending shnizzles amout of green on the new baby *grins*



once i get it running it will be the bomb and the next post will be from it! watch out

i'm out (:

muchos

let's face it. we definitely take everything, living or non-living for granted. You could just walk by a rock but never bother to pick it up, for it just might be a 100-million year old fossil.

life's like that, sometimes it takes a few tries before you finally realise : "OMG! I already have that ICE CREAM in my fridge! Why do I want ANOTHER ONE?" Silly huh?

But whatever it is, just stop, slow down and maybe sometimes rewind to make sure nothing was left behind.



loves,
avey

it's me - just reinvented

it's avey the new one, the leaving one and the one and only...

the link stays but the template will change once i get pro help from my LOVELY friends.. amazing.. blogging is such a stranger now. :)

miss me? loads of pictures to be up once i get the groove. here's one :

for the one and only, you know you're loved.

did anyone tell you?

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xoxo :)