someday, when my life has passed me by...

sometimes people need to scream. to release all that tension that built up from maybe just the smallest tick. And sometimes we can be spiteful in those moments but that doesn't mean we hate your guts till every time we look at you you'll disintegrate.

So try to understand : whoever that might be hurt (though I possibly doubt it since this tiny nook of mine is pretty secluded except for the bored readers, you know i love you loads) that it's not that I hate your guts.. I JUST HATE YOU SO MUCH THAT EVERY TIME I LOOK AT YOU I HOPE MY GLARES WILL MAKE YOU EVAPORATE! just kidding of course.seriously.

So the count down is on : 2 months and 20 days before I get to sit on a horrible plane and eat horrible food just so i can see those special peeps and feel like 'I'M HOME' once and for all. count with me too eh?

Things to look forward:

1. Y-O-U (yes i know who you are and i know you can't wait too! *girly squeals*
2. THE FUCKING-MIND-BLOWING FOOD!
3. some sunnny sun.. i'm turning sickly yellow. ugh
4. most of all i just want to be home. yes home.

love

avey

you.

it's to the point where things are out of hand

Ever had the feeling where you had this problem and there was no one around you that you could trust to confide in? It's like you're all alone and there is no one to suck you out of your misery. Whether it's a bad hair day or even a break up. Things just all seem worse when there is no one around you. Sucks even far worse when you know that there is someone there that cares but their so fucking far away. They're there but you can't reach them.

I need all those people. The ones that comfort me when I had to do what I thought was the hardest thing ever. Forgetting things. Someone. Things are just fucked up.

People that make me smile when they say just one word. Not even a word. A sound. Could you do that?

People that bring happiness with a simple hello are the people I want. The people I miss. The people I wish were here so that I can stop putting a fucking smile on everyday and just tell others to fuck off.

People that make everyday worth while going to school even if you knew it was going to be shitty.

People that are just people no matter what others say.

These people are friends. And you are not them. You may come close but you can't touch it. Just like how I can't touch them right now.

Go fuck the side that you're showing people and then maybe you'll realize...