S&A

I'm back finally :) hahaha Spencer&I

totally my new <3

one of the first

So I know not much postings have been going on or should I say up.. but heck I've actually been busy.. Not as busy as those I know going to COLLEGE.. but you know MAID-BUSY, that kind of busy :) Since the hols back home in sunny malaysia is ending I decided I shall do a post on the many firsts that I have managed to do since leaving for Canada sis months ago and coming back home 3 weeks ago..

Of the first is:

1. I've managed to get into UNIVERSITY!
2. I've got my FIRST high school diploma, western style of course :)
3. I've made so many multi-racial friends that I have beaten the 3 main race friends, no more 3 bangsa eh?
4. I've discovered that I have no idea who the person I am inside but some still remain calm about it
5. I've realized why I call certain people friends and others acquaintances instead
6. I've discovered that somewhere in my O.C.D is a very messy person among the chaos
7. I've gotten my first DSLR.. be envious LOL
8. I've gotten my first MacBook Pro
9. I've gotten my first roomie, surprisingly survived that encounter :D
10. I've gotten my first giant soft toy elephant, Ellie
11. I've experienced my first winter
12. I've touched REAL snow for the first time
13. I've learned that sometimes guys can be a better shopper than you, glenn & yang :)
14. I've realized that some people were never meant to be understood but just to be loved
15. I've moved away from home for the first time and it didn't really suck that bad
16. I've sat the tallest, craziest, scariest, steepest roller coaster and survived to tell the tale
17. I've now know that I like reading people's tumblr but I will never get one
18. finally, i've learned that being 18 means I CAN DRIVE AND DRINK BITCHES... :D

whadday think? done anything recently? or how bout some firsts?

revelations come everyday

who knew that i'd be back so fast at no. 23 eh? Besides the heat and sweat that seems to consume my every movement in the household, i feel good. Like a kid like lollies on a summer's day, maybe not as good but good good :) plus internet has never been this good towards me.. ah heaven.

So far plans have been made and can't wait to meet up with the "we sit in one row of 7 behind the class and never pay attention" group.. miss them like crazy as they never fail to make me crack up. Tomorrow is a scheduled day out with adel till night while waiting for the roomie to come from penang.. :) and then on sunday it's off to SINGAPORE to visit my tree/whale, biatch, glenn with phiiiiii-ooooo-naaaa and roomie :D super awesome so far..

wonder what else will be in store for me?

till then

to being idiotic and FTW

to PHIIII-OOOOOO-NAAAAAAA : FTW! (for the win & fuck the what, gorilla) yes being immature is the awesome, and i love playing around with nothing better to do (:

today just learned that FTW stands for for the win.. in the beginning guess what i stupidly thought it was WTF (what the fuck) but IN REVERSE! lol.. yes i am so bad right? lol but fiona is even better she created a new swear word. Instead of fuck you.. say "gorilla fuck you" so that no one can say really? get it get it? :P

hahahaha ying is like addicted to typing maniac on facebook all credits to fiona :) she's the source of all evil, she causes people to not study, she causes me to have wants for things that I DON'T NEED like the an $80 speakers even though i would want it :P lol but no no no i have one already i guess when it kongs out then i'll get a new one ;) But one thing that i really want is my long wanted shirt from wong fu productions.... :D I love nice guys FTW!

yes i know I'm in love with FTW... but what he heck let me be a jakun.. :)

hahaha oh and maybe a lomo but it's so expensive.. i want to cry.. :'(

at least i get my dslr! with lenses too!!!! how cool right? does good to do well in spm ;)

love

avey

17, maybe a little bit longer, maybe 18

just turned today... although to most of the people i turned 12 hours ago.. haha, i'm legal now how awesome is that? didn't feel any big difference moving from 17 to 18 but i guess it is pretty much a big thing since i'm going into uni this fall :O I know right so fast? yep time does really pass us by super duper sonic speed fast.

18? hmm just another number that allows me to get into clubs :P but in another perspective, it's a another 2 more years before i'm out of teenager life... shit.

but i guess you just have to embrace it huh?

here's to all the shits, drinks, 18's and many more life's celebrations that we just have celebrate (:

don't you just love them?

10 more days.. and 5 more hours

Currently reading "Kite Runner", the book is technically a stolen item but I mean how can I steal something that is already lost right? get the logic? I mean it's like borrowing and returning it without permission and giving it back in 3 weeks? Logical, absolutely. The two people in front of me are faking. One fake tutoring the other and the tutee is fake learning. Get the joke : The tutee is the smartest girl in school and the tutor is equally smart.. funny huh? :D

Things are getting hectic but still pretty reasonable. Going downtown to clean up the SISTA'S apartment before the MA and PA come and visit to see the chaos that is their apartment :D Can't wait till mi and di come though... freeeee goooood fooooooodddd... No more crappy Bronte's food. gotta go now. Going back to the "Kite Runner" :]

somethings just happen, and it fucking sucks

I came across an interesting thing today but it was actually a year ago that it happened. I'm still moved about the things people can say and describe about such a person even though they've only known them for a year or so. The words that came out on the internet page made me think of everything that I always take for granted and never really appreciated like my mummy sending me an email that just said hi, how are you doing? or how was your day. Or even my daddy sending me a text from all the way back home saying: " I'm stuck in a traffic jam, I hope your day is better than mine." It suddenly hit me that all the little things really really really do matter. It's the little things that remind you the most of those people that really truly love you for who you are. Can you believe it? I now know I can.

I wonder if you can actually look down on people when you're dead? Wouldn't that be hard to watch? You could see them but can't touch them, feel them or console them. That must fucking suck I guess but maybe the glimmer of hope to those still living will give them a better peace of mind.

Imagine if you had to go on without a person. Even if it wasn't someone close, just a person you knew. Humans are not susceptible to change and I'm a living proof of that. Just losing an ear stud makes me so frustrated that I want to sit down and sulk. heh. These people make up your life and it's like slowly etching them away. Your life is slowly etching away. Can you imagine that? I can't and I hate trying to.

When I was young and understood the concept of death, I always kept on thinking in my mind : "WHAT IF_______ WAS DEAD?" And sometimes I would cry myself to sleep thinking about it. It made me restless to think that they would be gone forever and WHAT IF you really did vanish from existence and it was like they never lived. Fuck. That really sucks huh?

So here the lowdown, I am an infinity times more appreciative of everyone and everything in my life eve if I am sometimes a bitch but I guess that hormonal imbalance sorry blame the man that made me, I really do believe that when we die we'll be able to look down on our loved ones while we sadistically wait for them to come and join you :), I really don't want to go or see someone go without really doing something to show them I appreciated them so much for making such a big impact in my life and LAST BUT NOT LEAST : I love your guts to bits and we all *hopefully* know that. :']

interesting thoughts.